My pity party

The last few weeks, I have very successfully thrown myself quite a big party! A PITY party that is, and for no good reason. Maybe it was partially due to the pregnancy hormones or the fact that up until this week, I couldn't think of a day where I had felt good. Don't get me wrong -I am ecstatic about this new little life that we have prayed for and dreamed about, and he or she is worth any fits of crying or bouts of nausea. My pity party may have been induced by sheer exhaustion of traveling and dealing with a toddler and his fits. Again, I dearly love my peanut, but this is a hard and trying stage! But regardless of the reason, I was just feeling sorry for myself.
I was choosing to allow my emotions to reign over truth in my life. I had convinced myself no one cared, I had no friends, something was wrong with me, I was a terrible wife and mom, and on and on. Are you starting to feel sorry for me? Have any of you been there? The bottom line is, it was my emotions running wild, and there is no excuse.
Finally it hit me-the only one I was hurting was me by choosing to live this way! Well, my hubby and kiddo were certainly not benefitting from it, not to mention my poor house, which I had neglected due to my lethargy. I needed to consciously choose to believe what is TRUE. I do have friends, I do have a church that cares, I have a God who is working in my life to make me more like Him, which will make a better wife and mother. And I needed to start looking for people I could bless! So after weeks of living in loneliness and isolation of my own choosing, I called some friends and a funny thing happened - the feelings changed!
"Finally bretheren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on these things." Philippians 4:8
Don't you just love how the Bible is so true!

Blessings,
Shannon